@Cheeseball451, I was pretty openly rejected by my BM too, early on, and my BF doesn’t know that I exist. I may not understand 100% how you feel, but I have a pretty good idea, I think. It’s OK. Whatever, however such a thing happened, please remember that it had absolutely nothing to do with you as a person. It wasn’t because of anything you said, did, was or are.
Sometimes, people can’t cope with the issues having a child brings up for them, especially if they themselves were hurt as kids. There are people who aren’t emotionally or mentally equipped to care for their child in the way that that child needs. There are people in your life who love you. I found that to be the case for me, even if those people weren’t and aren’t from my family of origin. Hang in there. If no one else accepts you, accept yourself.
You have a right to be here and to be who you are without feeling bad about yourself for existing, or about how your parents did or didn’t treat you. There is nothing to be ashamed of. OK? I hope you can talk to someone who can help you sort out your feelings and help you to come to some sort of understanding so that you can do what you want in this life.