@kyanblue a) We weren’t friends before we got involved romanticly. Our relationship went from just sex to falling in love with eachother to loving eachother.
b) The break up was very messy. Neither of us cheated or anything but he can be extremely agressive. He comes from such an environment, he was born in Kazachstan, lived there for 12 years, and then moved to the most agressive part of Berlin, and lived there for 11 years. I’ve called the cops twice on him in our relationship, I’ve been bruised up a few times, and he pulled my hair twice. When I left, it was bc he threatned me again, after coming home at 4AM with one of his friends, with “draging me down the hallway by my hair and beating the teath out my parents mouth, wait untill tomorrow morning blabla” so I’d say there’s alot of bitterness.. If you ask him then he’ll tell you that I couldn’t do anything right, and start naming my mistakes. But the only thing I can do is yell, I can’t defend myself against a 27 year-old child. He should have never hit me. His excuse on that will be that he didn’t use his fist and that he left my face alone, if he wanted to beat me up he would have used his fists and go for my face. But I didn’t want to hang around and wait for that to happen.
c) Somehow I still love him. I’m no longer in love with him, but there’s still that sweet part of him I knew @ the beginning, and he was my first serious, long-term relationship. Even tho part of me hates him. I wouldn’t be able to see him even talking with a smile to another girl. Bc there’s still that part of me that loves him. And idk if that will ever go away.
@beautifulbobby193 And he’s hurt me enough times, I’ve shed too many tears, the sex with him wouldn’t be worth me putting myself up to being vulnerable again, and thus giving him the chance to hurt me again.
And there are no children involved thank god.