Feelings aren’t real. You feel badly, and it is a transitory state. A lot of people your age don’t understand that feelings pass, and are replaced by different feelings, so when you feel horrible, it seems as if it will go on and on forever. Try to remember that you have never been afraid that if you started laughing, you wouldn’t be able to stop, right? King Solomon, who was supposed to have been very, very wise, had a ring on which was engraved, “This, too, shall pass.” He often looked at his ring both in good times, and in bad times. Get what I mean?
Next, millions upon millions of good people have never been to church, and never prayed. That’s not what distinguishes between good and bad. What distinguishes between good and bad, often comes down to how well you obey the Golden Rule. If you try to make sure that you do unto others as you would have them do unto you, you will be a good person no matter what. I promise.
Also, when we feel badly, sometimes it’s a sign that we could use a little help. If you want to know more about this, PM me, and I will tell you some ways to get assistance.