I’m wondering why your Mother puts up with this crap from you with apparently no consequences to you.
Has she always spoiled you and catered to you every little whim and wish?
The main reason you cuss at your Mom is because you can get away with it, apparently.
If there were consequences for it, you wouldn’t do it. But fortunately, you seem to have a conscience about it. Good for you.
You know better so now it’s time to do better. It’s called self-control. I’m glad you recognize the need to develop this quality.
People who reach adulthood without developing self control find themselves in for a rude awakening when they find out that the rest of the world is not willing to put up with their temper tantrums. Sometimes they even end up in jail before they wake up to the fact that the rest of the world won’t put up with their crap the way that their doting parents used to.
The reason you cuss at your Mom is because at some point in time you gave yourself permission to do that.
You now realize that she deserves better from you. So, revoke the permission. Hold yourself to a higher standard than you used to. Dont permit yoursef to act like an ungrateful lout. You’d be amazed at how easy it will be for you if you stop telling yourself that this is acceptable behavior for a son to display toward his mother. It really is that simple.
There is no mysterious force taking hold of your vocal chords. It’s your will. Use it.
There are far better ways to express yourself and get what you want.
Once you deny yourself the option of yelling, cussing and acting like an SOB, you’d be surprised how quickly you figure out alternate ways of relating.