Yes, somewhat. It’s more that I fear I might be “difficult” to deal with in an intimate relationship, like I’d be too needy or something. I don’t know if that’s actually true, because I’m still not quite sure what constitutes me being “too needy” or if that’s just some residual bullshit from my family and misguided home training or whatever, but I wonder sometimes if men I’m attracted to look at me and think, “Oh, gawd, Who could deal with that all day? No thanks!”
And I couldn’t even tell you what “that” is in any concrete terms. So I say nothing to indicate interest in any guy I’ve been attracted to. In that sense, I wonder if I’ll end up alone.
Now that I write this out, it sounds ridiculous. I’m no more annoying or needy than anyone else. If anything, the men who show their attraction to me tend to be clingy types who want a new mommy, which makes me sad. Thanks for posing the question, @lapilofu. I guess I have some more sorting out to do on this.