I’m a happy drunk, since I use booze as a means of escape. But I always drink alone, and get lost in my thoughts, hopes or delusions, or whatever you want haha, so I don’t really notice my outer behavior, since there’s nobody around to react to it, other than my roommate, who’s always sucking on a joint anyways.
In public, on the rare times that it occurs, (Alcoholics are pretty good at gauging and controlling the effect, ain’t nobody gonna get me off guard, lest they’re bigger boozehounds than I; when I decide to even hit the bar or some party without a cause.) I usually talk a whole lot, praise people and get all friendly and all, and if I drink too much, I get extremely aggressive. Not physically, but I mean I get rude, dismissive and insulting. Usually by then I left a long time ago though.
So yes most of what I may derive is from when I’m drinking on my own. I guess it feels like being happy, but it isn’t really. Like an illusion. But it also helps to motivate me and helps for concentration, which might make me seem more enthusiastic about everything, and more into shit. When I’m sober I’m the most boring and unmotivated person you’ll ever meet. XD
Thing is when I’m drunk, which is whenever I can, things feel better and natural so it’s hard to remember times when I questioned it, aside from when I’m not drinking lol. But then I just think about when I DIDN’T drink and that makes everything worse, since I felt more alive some years back than when I wake up every fucking morning today. XD
Yeah I don’t get ’‘hangovers’’ anymore, but it’s really hard even getting a weekend day started lol.
It’s kind of hard to explain though, like I mean anything is worth doing or thinking or feeling when I’m drinking. Otherwise it all feels lifeless and shit.
Ya I know this looks like I’m fishing for attention; and maybe I am, but really I just wanted to slightly express mesself boots it, since you offered the question, and a chance for me to elaborate. XD
Still though, happy drunk! Cheers! :D