I mean this in the nicest way possible, you’re crazy, maybe a little or a lot. Takes one to know one. I’m not as well as I’d like to be. Now what are you going to do about it. Putting a label on it might help because then there’s something to go on, like you’ll know what pills you should be taking, and you can learn coping skills to help medication or not. How old are you now, I mean, have you been living like this a long time, a long time since 18? You don’t have to be like this, as much. You can get help, you sound like you need some. Sounds like your a wanderer like me, you need to get on public assisstance. Get free insurance and shit. Then find a doctor and just be honest, it’s hard but it’s better than what might be there for you down the road if you stay untreated. That morning dread, do you dread your future like that too. Sucks, I’ll say a prayer for you, for strength and guidance. I’m not really the praying type, but on special occasions. Bye now. Hope this helps.