I’m feeling positive, which is a big change over the last few years. Is this what happiness feels like? Well, I choose to say it is. I am not worrying about whether people love me; I know it. I am not worrying about how good I am; I get positive feedback from others often enough to believe it. I’m not worried about how good a musician I am; it’s enough to know that people want to play with me.
There are friends I have reconnected with; a job I started contributing to; messes cleaned up. My family is much more stable. We are capable of doing things other than just putting one foot in front of another. We can dance! Even with great sadness over the loss of several people who have been very close to me, I am happy. Sad, but happy. The world is going on, and I’m still with it.