@HearTheSilence – GA.. but, as someone who went through the coming out process and ended up on the other side of the fence, I was seriously freaked. out. about having sex with girls. My journal from that time is very angsty and confused. I remember one entry saying, “Well, I’m pretty sure I’m attracted to girls, but I could NEVER EVER imagine myself having sex with one, and I think it’s really gross, so I’m probably not gay.”
Well….. that turned out to not be so true. :P
There was a lot of fear for me regarding anything exploring my feelings for girls. It wasn’t until I was 17 or 18 that I finally was willing to admit it was a permanent thing and to test the waters by trying on “bisexual”, and being open to something happening. I didn’t even kiss another girl until I was 20, but by that time, one of my best friends and I had started to fall in love with each other, so things started to fall into place. Even though I was in love with her, and she turned me on, and we held hands and I really wanted to kiss her, I was petrified.
I think you’ve been given some great advice here, so I won’t bother rehashing. To know whether you’re bisexual or not takes self-awareness, open-mindedness, and courage. There’s no need to rush into anything, and , in fact, I recommend NOT doing that. Give yourself some time, feel your feelings, ask yourself how you’d feel in different situations.. I’m sure it’ll fall into place for you, too.