I have enough older male cousins that act as brothers.. so I’ve never felt the ‘need’ for lack of better word for an older brother. Plus most boys I know are bathroom hogs, and I couldn’t deal with it on a daily basis. Though, it would have been nice to had help during the long days at the ranch.
As for siblings in general.. this is something I’ve always struggled with answering.
My sister is severely disabled and requires a lot of attention.
I’ve never really had a ‘normal’ experience with siblings. If there even is a normal.
Until I got to my sophomore year and really had to start worrying about losing her, I had always been a bit bitter towards her.
It’s hard being a little kid and having to be put on the back burner because your sister is read: seems more important. Its frustrating not having anyone to split chores with (especially when your parents are lazy fucks and make you do everything).
It’s not fun to have to spend birthdays home alone because your sister is in the hospital and kids aren’t allowed as visitors.
It’s not fun to not have anyone at home to talk to.
It’s not fun to hear your classmates talk about how awesome it is to spend time with their siblings. “What the fuck. I get to watch Barney with my sister.. that’s it.”
It’s not fair to know that my sister isn’t going to be around for much longer, then I’ll technically be an only child. I dread the day that the house is going to be quiet. My sister is the only one who really makes noise. Nobody else talks to each other.
But at the same time.. I would never change my life for anything.
I know I’ve become so accepting of people because of my sister, and that to me is awesome.
In elementary/middle school, my classmates would call each other “retarded” or hell, call the special ed. students “retarded and make fun of them. I’m so glad that I have my sister in my life to show me that there really isn’t anything to make fun of about the disabled. Fuck, I’ve had more fun volunteering at dances for handicapped people than I had at any high school dance. The Down Syndrome crowd = the best dancers.
I think this is where I need to stop typing because I’m too stoned to think about what I just wrote.
tl;dr: Yes, I’ve wished it.