I suffer from PSTD so I feel that way all the time. Try to keep in mind though as I try to that Depression is a lying deceitful bitch and anytime you feel helpless, hopeless and pointless, remember that those feelings are the distorted lies that it tells. Don’t believe them.
I’m glad to hear that you’re in therapy, because a good therapist can definitely give you a better perspective of what’s going on inside your head. Also keep in mind that your friends and family can also be excellent resources if you need a dose of perspective as well. We’re all here for you, if you need us.
I know its tough but hang in there. Sending you my best wishes and a big hug…