@Judi, so here’s mine feeling sadness that my sister is gone, she’s left behind 5 children, she’s younger than I and I will have none of my own. I’m torn between grieving for her and grieving for my lost time and chances to have my own.
Every so often I feel the sadness of missing all the men I’ve known and I wonder where they are in life today. I also struggle to remind myself that I passed on those opportunities by choice, so then I struggle to determine if I should accept my lost opportunities for children or rail against the unfairness.
I’ve always believed that I needed a man in my life for completeness. I believe that I cannot truly comprehend the other half of life on earth because I believe that man and woman are split and I only possess the perspective of one half. I’ve always believed that I would have children and must now accept that I will not. I’m not ready to accept that there is no man to be a companion to me, but I understand that day of acceptance will come as well.
Grief is my companion and won’t be leaving anytime soon.