I went through my “seeking” phase about 8 or 9 years ago now and it lasted for about 5 years. Some major transformations of consciousness. As always, no-thing, peak experience is sustainable, however…along with an amazing amount of serendipity during that time, the biggest and utterly amazing experience came to me one morning at about 4 a.m.
I wake up early to in-joy the solitude of early morning, read, meditate a bit.
On this particular morning I was grappling with some serious fears about my financial future and working on my surrendering to what is, while also taking the “self” empowering approach of feeling worthy for good things to keep manifesting in my life.
I used to sit on my kitchen counter with my feet on a pine table near a window that looked out over the mountains. This was my meditative “perch.” lol
I had been reading in a rather religious, but also generic inspirtational book and a feeling came over me of total peace and knowing that all would be okay.
I found myself saying out loud in that moment…” God, I am ready to claim my demonstration.”
12 hours later a far removed uncle passed away and I was beneficiary to a large estate.
Truly…it was uncanny! To this day, while part of me wants to claim I somehow manifested this fortuitious event, I really am not able to afford any explanation.
The manifestation of pure thought and sincere openess or, just “coincidence.” I do not know. :-)