I am so, so sorry. I’m going through this now, too and the death of a pet is devastating. I’ve found that nothing really heals my heartache and overwhelming sense of loss. The relationship with a pet is so incredibly special, that when it’s gone, it can be hard to find comfort. My neighbor shared a quote with me that I found very beautiful.
I loved my friend
He went away from me
There’s nothing more to say
The poem ends
Soft as it began
I loved my friend
-Langston Hughes
The grief comes in waves and I just let them come, I work with them and then try to keep my daily activities as normal as I can. I wish I had better advice or something to make you feel better, but just know that your kitten knew it was loved in the short time it had here on earth.