@SuperMouse I would also trade my life for an animals, but I don’t really value my life so I don’t think the question really applies to me.
Almost every day I think about suicide or have hallucinations, I can get lost in them like a movie playing.
I’m having a lot of stress right now over my siblings because they don’t care about our mother.
Today I was depressed and really low and I could feel myself getting worked up and (cue dog) she was right there sitting in front of me trying to give me a buddy paw to focus my mind on her and not on getting upset. Then she does this funny thing with her ears that I can’t explain but she literally looks like she smiling at me. And then I smile at her and she licks my face stares at me intently looking for my mood maybe and when she is satisfied she walks away wagging her tail. Shes a lab I guess she needed a job I am her job.
So I never really said that I actually need my dog and her special capabilities. She alerts me when my lows and highs are coming on. I’ve never had her certified but people are amazed at her intuition. She will do things like lick my fingers, sit on my feet and if my mood has not calmed down by then she will go to another person who is stable and she will shake and pant at them until they calm me down.
She does this with any mood that is overpowering and overbearing I don’t know how to explain it but she knows when I am unstable and bipolar sometimes I don’t even have to speak. It’s like to her maybe I am having some sort of seizure or something and she can sense that I’m not normal and she only does it with me.
Thing is I guess if didn’t have my dog I would be doing things I shouldn’t be doing and acting the way I shouldn’t be.
God does things for a reason. When my husband was alive he kept me stable. I never would of ever had dogs of my own accord I don’t believe in owning them. Then my husband passed away and I had to take the dogs which were my husbands dogs to begin with and one became what my husband was ironically and now she keeps me stable. Weird.