@Judi: “I don’t know if it’s a grudge”
I don’t consider that a grudge. If those companies are currently practicing things you do not want to support, than this seems to be the opposite of a grudge. I think of a grudge as the act of maintaining a hatred or resentment of someone in the past with disregard for their current state.
I have an aunt who is quite angry at another family member for a disagreement they had 8 years ago. These aren’t even the same people anymore. So, my aunt has been carrying around all of this anger and resentment at a person that no longer exists. To make it worse, the person she is angry with has spent the past 8 years attempting to put their disagreements behind them and start anew.
This is what I consider a grudge. It’s rooted in delusion and maintained through great effort. I find that letting go of my anger allows me to periodically check in with people and allow our current selves to meet, opening up the possibility for healing and possibly new ways of relating to each other that are more healthy for everyone involved.