Fluther. I should take a long break. I don’t treat it because I have been a little paralyzed in life, and because I have a lot of change going on right now.
I’ve been eating too much, maybe that counts too. I did do something about it. I got my thyroid tested, it was a little fast, which explains why I have been so hungry, and I am not letting myself eat as much and I switched back to a healthier diet, plus I started weighing myself daily.
I used to be addicted to caffeine, I still LOVE it when I cheat. It’s been over 15 years since I quit. I quit to not be dependent on it. Now I think when I cheat for more than just a few ounces once in a great while, when I start drinking some daily, I think maybe it increases my chance of a shingles outbreak, which has encouraged me again to not cheat. That chance, plus feeling crappy when I stop the caffeine isn’t worth it for the most part. Even if I drink caffeine just 4–5 days in a row, in a relatively small amount, when I stop again I look and feel a little under the weather. People ask me what’s wrong just looking at me,
I don’t think I have a very addictive personality. I just probably need to occupy myself with more productive endeavors.