@hug_of_war – I have recommended in other posts that you reach out to student services at the school in order to get connected with an advocate, due to your special needs. Have you done so? The school also has counseling services available for students.
The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI.org) has a page for adults with autism. and can help you find mental health resources near you – free, if needed
You may feel lonely and isolated at the moment, but you are not alone in spirit. We care about you and want to see you succeed. Unfortunately, we can’t get you the help you need – it is up to you to reach out and ask. College was a pretty miserable time for me, because I am very far on the scale of introversion, but I still can only imagine how difficult this is for you.
You fought long and hard to get yourself this opportunity to move forward in your education and to get yourself into the career you’ve been wanting for a long time now. Try to think of this challenging time as an investment in your future and a stepping-stone to your independence and success. Keep your eye on the prize, as they say – and don’t allow yourself to get dragged down by this loneliness. Become you’re own best friend – it made a great deal of difference in my own life!
Can you go out for a walk and familiarize yourself with the campus or neighborhood? Sometimes just getting out and moving around can help shift one’s mental attitude. Do you have a piece of music that perks you up and gets you feeling empowered and motivated? Give it a listen! And whatever you do – don’t give up and don’t give in. You deserve better, but only you can get your to where you want to go. <3