I’m surprised at how difficult it is for me to live with my inlaws this time around. We did it once before 20 years ago for a few months.
I’m surprised how annoyed and disappointed I am at my husband for not taking advantage of his “time off” after being laid off to enjoy the free time a little. His work ethic is something I value, but at this moment I wish he would give it a rest a little bit. He is about to embark on a job that will probably not give him much freedom for a year or two, maybe more. I’m kind of pissed off that he doesn’t care. I’m surprised how important it is to me that we, as a couple, start enjoying free time more. I don’t mind doing things on my own, but I much prefer if my husband would be in line with me.
I won’t get what I want, I say that in a very general sense, but it is related to what I wrote above. I so rarely know what I want, but when I do, I want it. I’m not going to fully explain, it would take too long, and sounds ungrateful. I’m just frustrated, disappointed, and a little angry, and I’m surprised I’m so full if various emotions regarding it.
The most surprising thing is having to be supportive while not really being happy about how things are going. I think it’s something a lot of married people probably do.