If I can just add here that suicide is never just a singular event. It does not happen in isolation. While the pain and anguish may no longer be a problem for the person who does it, it just transfers the suffering to those who still remain alive. And then there is the guilt involved.
I know in my sons case he had been speaking and riding the bus with his friend 45 minutes before his friend hung himself. There was no indication; they were laughing and joking on the ride home. They planned on getting together in a little while and go skateboardiing. My son went home, got his skateboard and went back over there only to be stopped by the police from entering the home. That is how short a time it was. It must have been something he had been planning for a while and he didn’t want anyone to know.
It happened eighteen years ago and to this day he blames himself for not seeing it coming. It is an anniversary he dreads every year, the day his friend killed himself.
The boys mom was thrown into a bout of severe depression that lasted several years affecting both her home and her professional life. She didn’t eat, she didn’t sleep. She cried. She was convinced she should have known, he was her son and they had been together since his birth. How could she not have seen it? She is still convinced it was her fault.
His sister came home and found him hanging in the tree and had to call 911. She tried, oh she tried, to get him down. She couldn’t. She held him up so the rope was not tight around his neck until the emergency crew arrived and cut him down. That fucks a person up. She too blamed herself. Had she been home he wouldn’t have done it. If she had arrived a few minutes earlier maybe she could have held him up and they could have revived him. How could she not have been able to tell her brother was hurting bad enough to end his own life.
She had her four year old son in her arms when she saw her brother through the patio window. He saw it too. He never got to know his uncle, except through photographs.
And you know why he did it? Because the school and the courts were bullying him. He was not a bad kid, just a kid with problems but every time he had a difficulty, the school thought the courts should be involved and he had acquired over $1000.00 in fines. In his note he said he hoped the courts would drop the fines so his mom and dad would not be burdened with the cost of his misbehavior.
Hell of a reason to hang yourself.