Started the year believing I had ovarian cancer.
I started off afraid of death. That quickly passed, and I realized I had an out from all the pain. I settled into knowing I had a relative expiration date, and looked forward to it. When my surgeon joyfully announced the cancer was a false diagnosis, and that I would live, I dampened his joy by grimly accepting the news with mental images of facing years of uncontrolled pain.
My regular doctor eventually took my condition seriously. She is now working with me on finding a combination of medications that will help me live a functional life as low in pain as we can find.
The antidepressant she had me on was wayyyy wrong for me.
While tests for stiff person syndrome were inconclusive, she gained knowledge of what that is, how my symptoms mirror the condition exactly, so she is now approaching treatment with a better understanding. I have a whole Walgreen’s aisle of stuff to take every day, but already I am feeling less bone crushing ferocity in my spasms and pain.
My daughter has completely disowned me. It is a situation made somewhat difficult for her as her school is making requirements which force her to ask me for help. HA!
Over time we have permanently lost some much loved jellies. There are two who are gone who stay in my heart, and I don’t think I will ever get over the loss.
On the joy side, I won’t say who, because I haven’t asked permission to share, I expect to soon meet a jelly in person. I am so excited.
I am not yet published. That falls on my indecision about what route to take with each story.
Currently I am working on a story about a group of people who find themselves suddenly in the Jurassic. With no survival skills, they fumble through how to stay alive.
Spoiler, they find some interesting unknown facts about the period, including t Rex. Too bad they would never be able to take what they learn back to the 21st century.
I am looking forward to having a future again. Hopefully, my pain will be managed well enough to enjoy at least some of my life in the coming years.