I am also a perfectionist, as I am coming to realize. I have really bad anxiety disorder, and a lot of that comes out in me needing everything to be perfect so I don’t get judged.
This has absolutely made me scared to fail. I always think about failing, and I am always scared. I don’t want to be judged, or thought less of. I do take a lot of pride in the things that I do accomplish, and I want others to be aware of my effort. So when I fail, I feel that others don’t think I put enough effort and it looks bad on me.
I have re-done entire projects or just completely given up on some over a tiny mistake I couldn’t change. I stopped coloring a page from a book halfway through because I colored a little bit over the line and I obsessed on it too much.
I do realize failure is necessary to succeed, I just try to prevent it when I can. I am making it a goal to not obsess so much over the details. Failure is okay. I just need to remember that.