it comes from a pagan myth i heard a while back
my life has been the epitome of crap. Like I was kicked out at 16, had abusive parents, horrible luck, and no friends. there was a laundry list of stuff that was goin wrong, so i started believin in some of those myths to keep hope. well in the myth when humans were banished from eden there was a group of angels that fought to keep them in heaven. These angels were sent to earth and lived eternal lives of hell.
so thats where i get this handle from, my other one is xero, that my angels name =p