You’re lucky enough to know what your inner conflict is, you should start there. I’ve had anxiety for years, and have never had to take drugs to keep it under control, but I know it can be helpful for a lot of people.
If you’re not in therapy, think about going. I just started and wish I had years ago. I didn’t, out of fear, and pride, I realize now, but it helps to have some one who talks to people with mental issues all day long tell you you’re not crazy, what your going through is normal, and will pass. Because it will.
Hang in there, don’t stop breathing. find things that comfort you. I know that’s easier said than done, and in the heat of anxiety sometimes it feels like nothing is comforting, but you have to make it happen.
I make a routine for myself every night; I take a shower with this certain body scrub with a smell that reminds me of my childhood, and listen to what’s titled my “happy mix”. All day, when I feel my anxiety rising, I think about how tonight, no matter what, I will be in that good place.
And try to remember what it felt like when you didn’t have anxiety, even if it was for a just a moment. Remember that your capable of existing without it.
Don’t give up!