I’ve finally come to the conclusion that it’s not a sin. For years I’ve been afraid of what I can do, thinking that it must be magic or demonic aid, but it’s not. It’s just me using the other parts of my brain that most people can’t. Must be from the high IQ. But it still scares other people so I keep it hidden most of the time. It all began when I was six and used to make toys come to me. After each of my two brother ran screaming from the room on separate incidences, I decided not to do it anymore. I’ve been afraid of what I can do. So now I only seem to be able to do it in important or emergency situations. Most recently a dental aid got the filling/heating device (don’t know the real name for it) too close to my eye, so I looked at it and it went flying across the room, hit the wall and fell to the floor.
The dentist ran in and wanted to know what happened to his expensive device. The dental aid left the room to tell him. See it scares people, so I try not to do it. But I wish there was a place where there were others like me that I could be myself around. When I saw the movie “Push”, I thought, hey, they’re like me, but it was just a movie. There’s got to be other freaks out there. If there are the Internet will be the only place I can find them. I can’t just walk up to people on the street and say hey can you break tree roots with your mind too? Too weird. So I keep it hidden in the real world to keep from ridicule and terrorizing others, but no, it’s not a sin. Socially unaccceptable, but not a sin.