Not knowing anything about your situation makes it hard for me find the right words. But it’s a bad, bad idea. I’ve been there.
I left home at 16. I ran away 3 times, the 1st at 15, didn’t come back the last time. My home situation was pretty much one of the worst you could imagine. Alcoholic father who had a thing for pretty young girls – even his daughter. Cult-religious mother. Both were physically & emotionally abusive.
These were my dark family secrets.
So I ran away. I’m 51 now – obviously I survived right. For years I thought I’d done the only thing I could do. And life on my own was hard I was alone, without money, and pretty much a target for every scumbucket out there. There was nothing exciting about it, trust me.
It took me until I was 30 to see that there could have been another way. As bad as things were at home, looking back I see what I could have done rather than put myself in so much danger. It was so simple, but after 16 years of being taught to keep family secrets i couldnt see it at the time.
I could have TOLD SOMEBODY.
So that’s my advice to you. Tell somebody. Find anyone you think can help, counselor, relative, cop, whoever can help and talk to them about whatever is going on. Don’t keep it inside.
I know how scary that sounds, but believe me, in the long run it’s going to be so much better than running away.