@Hawaii_Jake =Great question! If I bring the ice cream, might I join y’all? Now my fatwah by some might follow, but they can go sit elsewhere. And skip-to-my-Lou….
I guess I have a different view of the Q, and it brings it’s friends with it.
Do I like what I have accomplished, all in all?
Uhm- yeah. Sometimes uphill with more than enough to share in the backpack, and cement-block shoes, as accessories, but I made it.
Have I been happy in all sections of my life? As long as I made a difference (for the better)
Have I done stupid? Yep, and came back to visit from time to time.
Did/do I now care for others? Yes. Too much, I’m told. If given a hard way to go about doing it- then stop? No way in hell.
Will I stand by my promises. To death. Have I failed? Yes. A couple of times. The biggest, promising to be there for a last breath, and I was late because I came back in the house to get a book to read aloud, and slippers for a person who was not getting out of bed at the hospital. I was there most of the time, but I was late that day. Fucking late.
With PTSD, you’re to take better care of yourself. Put yourself ‘first’. Whatever. (roll eyes here) I’ll get right on that.
Like the whole person- no.
Like some of the person- yeah, I guess.
I’ll have to go with that.